Left To Be Said

Left To Be Said 

By John M Lennon

Cold winds of the night 

As the tears are shed 

They freeze like the memories of you 

On this our last night 

What more could I have said 

Maybe tonight you could breathe instead 

But it's from the heavens you read 

The last words I have left to be said 

All Without

All Without 

By John M Lennon

Flashes of light 

I see my whole life 

Darkness of clouds demons I fight 

Past is what haunts me tonight 

Backed up doubled over 

Bleeding the last few drops

Of which are my life 

All without saying goodnight 

Why Not

Why Not 

By John M Lennon

More then today that makes me cry

Yesterday is why I ask why 

Tomorrow is now why I try 

Even though it's a loss from long before

I'm still dying on the inside 

Just a little more 

And with each tear I cry 

Just wish I knew why I can not die 

Giant

Giant 

By John M Lennon

The badass I could be 

That is all you see

No matter how many days it has been

I will never be as angry as I had been

So nothing more then me 

The gentle giant you don't see

Forever Looking Back

Forever Looking Back 

By John M Lennon

Chasing my past

Only looking back 

Seeing all that I have passed 

Now regret is where I stand 

Asking the good Lord, how do I take it all back 

As he tells me, I have done chose my path 

And this is the end at which I will stand 

Forever looking back

Sharing Time

Sharing Time 

By John M Lennon

Reflections in my mind, thinking about you 

A past that use to shine

Now it is only with tears that I share the time

And it is with each tear my pillow soaks up 

One more moment without you that chokes me up 

Lost in the night, no longer able to hold you tight 

And I never even got to say goodnight 

Now in darkness demons I fight 

When it was you that use to bring me light 

But now my whole life fades into the night

Because without you I was no longer able to fight 

No Longer Here

No Longer Here 

By John M Lennon

My words 

A welcomed window to the past 

It's here I transcribe pain, joy, our shared laughes

Memories that will forever last 

Now at a time in peace I relax

A smile graces my face 

Shedding a tear 

As it's one more memory that out shines the fact 

That you are no longer here 

Use To Be

Use To Be 

By John M Lennon

Words my windows to the past 

Holding you, the smiles the laughes 

Memories now blurred by the pain of that last night

Burning in my heart

With every tear I'm falling apart 

But as each tear dries

I see I can only live my life 

So it's the good words I keep 

And the memories that use to be 

But no longer you and me

Is This End

Is This End 

By John M Lennon

Lush fields of green 

Words of my mind sing with the wind 

Now words forgotten to where I end 

Reaching back from where this begins 

Seeing it all has been 

Trying to start my life over 

But all there is... 

Is this end 

Nothing More Right

Nothing More Right

By John M Lennon

Nothing more right

Not even a final goodnight

So here lonely in my last minutes of life

I see the light

It has warmed me with guidance tonight

So no longer do I fight

Because I see this is right

Freed

Freed 

By John M Lennon

Nothing more then what has been

But I lost it all again

So here I sit lonely without a friend

Drinking from this bottle of sin

Wishing all this pain would end

So I could move on and be free again

Wondering

Wondering 

By John M Lennon

A gift everyday

It was me wrapped in your love

But it's now as I sit without your hug 

Wondering which ways, why? 

As it's accompanied by each tear I cry

All as I try and remember...

Your Voice

Your Voice 

By John M Lennon

A missed call remembered

The words of your voice 

Memories I chase 

Here for granted but with nothing left to take 

By the phone I sit and wait 

Wishing for one last ring to take place 

So I can tell you, without you is a life I can not face

Never Knew

Never Knew 

By John M Lennon

The elusion of you

Everything I thought I knew 

Now nothing more true 

Then this heart break that all stints from you

A pain I wish I never knew 

But in the beginning I could never believe it could be true

Knowing

Knowing

By John M Lennon

Every old memory

Echoes of your laugh 

Smiles that got me past 

Alone I sit and wonder 

With every what... if

But I know tonight it's still you I will miss

Wishing for one more goodnight kiss 

Knowing I can no longer have this

That Was Mine

That Was Mine

By John M Lennon

Middle of the night 

A bed warmed by you 

On this stormy night

Tears fall with every flash of light

No longer able to hold you  

My only dream, left in this life

As I cry for help 

I drain the pain of this life 

The cold seeps out 

Seeing what my love was about 

A heart, frost bitten with time 

You are the one that made me shine 

But that was all a past,

In the life that was mine 

Looking Back

Looking Back  

By John M Lennon

All that you were

A happiness I lived my life for

The woman I loved and adored 

But now it's empty picture frames 

Broken memories on which I bare 

Forgotten moments in time still wishing you where mine 

But it's as I look back I see why you will never take me back. 

Again One Day

Again One Day 

By John M Lennon

Heart broken I cry 

Laid alone wondering why

And as I look in the mirror 

I can not see one more reason to stand here

But I fight each day 

With the chance to see you again one day

But it's now as I lay at rest 

Seeing you gave me your best 

With your last look upon me 

Buckling at the knee's

Our final goodbye 

I just wish I could have been the one to dry your eyes

Can Not Wait

Can Not Wait 

By John M Lennon

Love eluded 

A distant chase

Nightmare to your memories to which I wake 

The puzzles of the right hand 

As it's the left trying to figure out the man I am 

But it's a distant chase 

For which is a game that my love can not wait

Next To You

Next To You

By John M Lennon

Each tear as a question 

Every thought leads to you 

Here alone I have no clue 

Just wanting to be next to you 

Pains Passed

Pains Passed  

By John M Lennon

A man once made 

Your words to crush his strength 

Now to hold on to everything that's past 

It's here I try and remember your sweet smile and laugh 

But visions of the past blur, as too much time has passed 

So with this one last desperate act 

I will seek your forgiveness trying to remember our past 

As I end all this pain with a flash 

Heard Right

Heard Right

By John M. Lennon

Rumors of what you have heard

I leave you with this 

My last two words 

Now I know it's going to hurt 

But sit and let it stir

Now as you spin you see a blur 

And it was all because it was 

FUCK YOU 

That you heard

Secrets Of Silence

Secrets Of Silence

By John M Lennon

From the shadows beneath 

Breath held, gripped tight 

Words you've relied on

Secrets of silence

And as your grip slips 

Thinking of the ones you miss

Thoughts become tears 

As it's for forgiveness with each prayer 

Pain slipping away 

Silencing your words, a pain that gives it all away 

Only one last thing to say 

Seeing you lay there took everything away 

Leaving me in dismay

Fear Faced

Fear Faced

By John M Lennon

A true friend to say

What's real today

It's right here I hear it in every way

So it's a thanks today

As I turn to face this fear today

Right Here

Right Here

By John M Lennon

No where near 

Just right here

Seeing past what used to be clear

Now only standing in fear

Finally seeing how you got me here

Standing alone 

Fear faced as I am grown 

Just wishing to be home 

But here I am all alone 

Waiting to once again feel the love of a home

Go Round

Go Round

By John M Lennon

Which way round

Because when I think of you 

It's my heart that starts to pound

Taking a look around

I can see it's to you my heart is bound

So now with every sound 

It's to you this new love 

In which I am found 

And you are now my every thing 

That makes this world go round

My Heart for you

My Heart for you 

By John M Lennon

Hurt with more pain 

But your love encourages me to change

So every word to remain

Because it's my heart I opened to you 

Every word I say is true

And it's every I love you 

That pushes the dark and lonely into the blue

And it is all because my heart is for you 

Cut So Deep

Cut So Deep 

By John M Lennon

At a arms reach so I don't get cut too deep

But listen to my words 

Because it's from the heart that I speak

So now as you walk away

I remember why I am this way

And it's at this distance that keeps me alive today

Me Again

Me Again

By John M Lennon

Could you see deep within

If I would let the sun shine touch my skin

To let these old feelings of worth back in 

Could you be with me again

Gives Me Life

Gives Me Life 

By John M Lennon

An obstacle to over come 

More then your love and strength to carry on 

It's to the lord I prayed each night 

Thankful with the many blessings, he has gave us in this life

But I ask him for this one more tonight

Because you are the love of my life 

And without you there is no sun in my sky

No stars in my night

Because it's you I love with my whole life 

And I could never live without the breath… 

That's you that gives me life

From Before

From Before

By John M Lennon

To fear what might be right 

Holding on with what's left of my might 

How am I to say goodnight 

Pictures flashing through my mind 

Seeing the end, I know where I must begin 

As it is in the arms of my loved ones from before 

They came back to gather me 

So know that my path is right 

As they watch over me on this, my final flight 

I just want you to know, I love you with all of my life 

And I will be watching over you at the end of the night 

Bleeding Away

Bleeding Away

By John M Lennon 

What you where once before

But no longer the woman I can adore

Right here from the floor 

As I hear your voice 

On the other side of the door

My dealing with all this pain

Just one more cut to this vain

Now bleeding away

The love I lost that day

Gone Away

Gone Away

By John M Lennon

A million more but mine

It's your love I lost this time

So to run from the day

I try and hide away

But it's every place I stay 

I see you in some way

So now it's in a grave 

I lay 

Because I could no longer

Have you in my day

Who I Am

Who I Am 

By John M Lennon

In this book I write

More then the feelings I fight

It's about you tonight

The love I lost that night

Now walking I stand

Trying to be who I am 

But it's too long alone in this land

Without you that I have had to stand

Trying to be who I am 

Your Man

Your Man

By John M Lennon

One more moment to wait

But now it's your love I embrace

So as we kiss 

It's one more thing I never want to miss

So with my heart in your hands 

Try and understand 

I can only be who I am 

and I will be all I can 

As your man

Words Today

Words Today

By John M Lennon

No more words today

You walked by, with just one look this way

When it use to be in each others arms we would lay

Talking about our day

But now to many have gone away

And without a word to say

The Pure And True

The Pure And True

By John M Lennon

Inspired to be true 

Only inspired by you 

Not one thing I would not do

Yes this is a never ending love, 

I have for you 

Now in my heart so pure and true

Every breath I breathe is for you 

And our love that's so true

Knowing it from that first moment with you

So know I am never letting go of you 

Along The Way

Along The Way

By John M Lennon

A moment in my mind

Reality lost as I look back in time 

The high and sight for today

But not enough intelligence to let it play out that way

Now it's every moment that I drift past 

Memories of times when we would laugh 

Wishing to have it all back 

But the reality is... 

That it is all in the past 

Now to look forward from today 

Learning from the past, and on which path to stay 

Walking towards new goals of what I want at the end of the day

Finally I am walking down the right road 

And these are all lessons I have learned from my past 

The making of this man I am today

As it is an intelligence I learned to listen to along the way

Walked Away

Walked Away

By John M Lennon

With this glass half full 

I see the whole world as cruel

And another drop today

Fills it more this way

As it's here I lay

Blood stains to say

Fuck it 

Because now I have walked away

Never Really Knew

Never Really Knew

By John M Lennon

Here in solitude I sleep 

So it's every word from my past 

Laying here with each day to pass

Never really able to get away 

As the pain lingers

Words that echo through 

The real words I wished would have stayed 

You never heard at the end

Now every action held on too 

But it's not the same as me holding you 

And that is what you never really knew 

Every Moment

Every Moment 

By John M Lennon

Shadows in the valleys from which I crawled

It was only from the bottom that the top looked so tall 

But now as I stand atop the peaks of which the future is mine 

I see all the sweat and blood shed 

And with every moment that I shined 

Fight Or Flight

Fight Or Flight

By John M Lennon

A clouded memory

Pain, anger, and a fear of loss fueled that night 

Things said meant in spite 

Hidden scar ripped open 

Now bleeding... shame 

Memories to rush back 

Fight or flight as I was backed into a corner 

And to think I always thought it would be you 

Too comfort me in the end

Your Thoughts

Your Thoughts 

By John M Lennon

Words of therapy

Recited as my art 

Deep wounds punctured only to spill pain 

Reforming the past, and the man you see standing here to forever last 

But it was as you questioned every reason for which I stand 

I truly saw your thoughts of a man  

Gave It All

Gave It All 

By John M Lennon

Stars and stripes 

Thought's with every word I write

Freedom is for what I fight

Never able to fear the night

With each bomb that burst 

I feel a thirst

But these are the last few words 

That will have any worth 

As it is in the darkness of the night 

I gave it all