Unforeseen

Unforeseen

By John M. Lennon

Gun loaded, cocked.

Jail in every thought.

Death in my eyes.

He knows.

Badly beaten, severely bruised

By force from within

His blood spilling on the floor

Splattered on my face.

I took too much

More than even he deserved.

Not wanting to run, hide

Rather to say goodbye.

I watched him lay there

Paying with spilled blood.

I could have taken more

But I already took too much.

This World

This World 

By John M Lennon

The touch of your soft skin

The look as this love began

Memories of you the love I lived within

All but lost as I closed the door to my heart of sin

Now each day is a thought to reach back in

But as the hurt burns to bad I let go again

Wishing for one more day to explain the hurt

But this world cares less for a man that doesn't deserve a friend in the end

Now Replaced

Now Replaced 

By John M Lennon

A love lost, 

You... every thought I wish to be forgot 

And it's as I scream and shout 

Every drop that bleeds out 

Moments without you, I never seem to see through 

That's why this is the final time I will think of you 

The last thing in this world that I will do 

So as I close my eyes 

All I see is you

Feeling like I'm right next to you 

So as the pain fades with the light  

A smile grazes my face and it's every thought of you lost now replaced 

Easeing in to my final resting place 

So Much More

So Much More 

By John M Lennon

Countless tears cried 

Countless lies to myself lied 

All why the truth was in your heart and eyes 

I walked by crushing each dream

Never good enough for the day 

As the darkness of the night comforted me in an odd way

And as it got cold I felt more at home

A crushed delusion from before 

You where my world, and a whole lot more 

Everything I lost

But you are worth so much more 

Said Goodbye

Said Goodbye

By John M Lennon

An anger inside

Eating away at me with each lie

Each new night brings a battle to my mind

Thinking about you with each rhyme 

If only I would have told you what was on my mind 

Maybe I would not be so tormented as you walked away for all of time

Now it's each day without 

But thoughts of you still leave me with doubt 

And it's you the love I can't live without 

So it's tonight I turned to block the sunlight out 

And as the darkness sets in, it reminds me of this cold heart within 

So as each drop drips to the floor it's a pain I won't feel anymore 

With the next sun to rise there will be no twinkle in my eye 

Because it was last night I said goodbye 

Please

Please 

By John M Lennon

A shot to the heart 

A fear I thought I could live without

But it was every word you would scream and shout 

Things that would suck all this life right out 

Now stirring in my head all the things meant and said 

Pain stricken grieve 

Every word that has brought me to my knees 

All while asking for forgiveness, please 

The last true thing I beg for and plead 

Forgetting

Forgetting 

By John M Lennon

Lonely stretched out 

Wyoming

Is where I roam about 

Wide open range 

Traveling down the same old same 

Peaks of white as I stare across the land 

Wind blowing me to where I am 

Now lost where I stand

Hearing your voice... whispering 

Forgetting who I am

That Day

That Day 

By John M Lennon

This world alone

No longer home

Pain for days 

Words I've forgotten, You use to say 

So as one thought leads to the next 

It's in my grave as you throw roses on my chest 

Thinking of life and the moments that there will be next 

But it's without my laughter that our kids will play 

My guiding words and telling you, It will be ok 

All as I walked away 

In the pain I was in 

On that day 

Wishing To Call

Wishing To Call

By John M Lennon

A tough time to fall 

Learning how to crawl 

My back against the wall 

Lost in the dismay

Every way I look

Seems to take me the same way 

Lost in the words that use to lead me right 

Every place I fall

With these pictures scattered on the floor 

Places I'm no longer wanting to remember 

When it's only you I wish I could call 

All This Pain

All This Pain

By John M Lennon

Notes I've wrote

The times I could have held you close

Although hurt, I spoke

Running... 

Hanging my head in shame

Only thing to remain

The loss of you

Accompanied by all this pain

Will Begin

By John M Lennon

A mountain to climb 

Every word to rhyme 

Heart broken 

With words I shined

Looking up from this valley I am in 

I see where I must begin 

Each day stepping forward 

But then my time was cut short 

You now look upon me as I rest

Words I am now remembered by

Remembering me at my best 

Knowing it was every day, my life was a test 

I did my best 

But the world beat me too this 

My own end where a new happiness will begin 

Crying

Crying

By John M. Lennon

To say goodbye 

With each tear I cry

Wondering why 

Wishing tonight was a lye

All because then you would have never of died

And it would be on your shoulder I could cry

Nothing Left

Nothing Left 

By John M Lennon

The roar of the jets 

Further away I regret 

But it's for you I hold my breath

Because without you I have nothing left

Dreams Away

Dreams Away

By John M Lennon

Walking away with each step today

What more can I say

I lost my words with each tear 

With my dreams washed away

What more could make me stay

Knowing it was you that left me this way

No sorry to fix what you put me through

On this my final day

Losing you

Losing you 

By John M Lennon

A crushing blow 

It's my heart you let go

Now not knowing where to go 

I lay here on the floor

Trying to remember the times before

Because it was then... 

I had you to adore

To Do This

To Do This 

By John M Lennon

A time shared, ages lost 

Wondering what our love finally cost

Sitting, pondering what is right 

We both let go and moved on 

Without each other tonight

Countless days filled with thoughts 

Confused anger with my next 

Now as I stand at the foot of this cliff 

I wonder without you will I ever be able to do this

Weak

Weak

By John M Lennon

Something short and sweet

But without a hook or a beat

So it's here I take a peek

Wishing to land on my feet

But no word can complete

This message I can not speak

As it's a love for you that makes me weak

Forgotten

Forgotten 

By John M Lennon

Every thought and dream without you 

The love I live my life without 

Every word my heart screams and shouts

A tortured mind that bleeds 

Your pillow, lost it scents of secure 

Unwrapped arms, folding with no warmth 

Pushed away forgotten in your day 

Alone I walk my life this way 

Trying to be forgotten the rest of my days

The Rest

The Rest 

By John M Lennon

A prayer echoed 

A warmth cried

Thoughts of you on this lone night  

Feeling the grace of gods hands holding me tight 

I let go tonight 

Every thought of our cherished love 

Every moment we shared kissed and hugged 

One never as sweet as the next 

And now it's at heavens gate I wait for the rest

Her Grace

Her Grace 

By John M Lennon

With grace and a smile 

Savoring the last few moments of life 

Huddled around held tight with each prayer, comforts of life 

All before saying goodnight

But to never let go, memories of years of love and warmth that let us know 

She was an angel that walked among us

And will now forever look over us 

My Warmth

My Warmth 

By John M Lennon

Step by step among you 

Looking down as you pray 

Words you are left without hearing from my lips

But as you remember yesteryears, I'm never that far away 

Gone in the peace of the night 

Loved ones held and gathered tight 

The lord welcomed me with his guiding light 

So as I am remembered hold each other tight 

And embrace the warmth you felt from my life

Tears I Cry

Tears I Cry 

By John M Lennon

With each tear I cry 

You question me as a man

And I ask why

Because I can feel the pain of a day

Or I see what I lost that day

Knowing it's for you today

But with more then my tears can say 

It's for you I pray

Hoping one day

You will see that it is ok

Anymore

Anymore 

By John M Lennon

The last thing to know 

It's the loss of your love as I let go

But it's every moment that I show

The pain from which I grow

Now the darkness of the floor

Just past the barrier of this door

Because I now know you don't want me anymore

Today

Today 

By John M Lennon

Wish and pray 

Something more today

But to only know yesterday

It's tomorrow that's to far away

Now it's here I lay 

Seeing there's nothing more to say

Because I threw my whole life away

Trying to be ahead of myself today

To Face

To Face 

By John M Lennon 

It's from every moment that we are made

so it's from every second we take

But now as I break 

I see what's left on my plate

All the things I never

Wanted to face

Roads Of Life

Roads Of Life 

By John M Lennon

Traveling the roads of life

Wondering around which bend will their be a fight

But I have learned to navigate this world just right

Till I ended up in your arms that night

Now it's for you I fall each night

Even though I am in darkness you are my light

That's why I wish to hold you tight

Each and every night 

For the rest of my life

Should Have Been

Should Have Been 

By John M Lennon

With every tear shed 

Something more unsaid

Off alone in bed

With my pillow taking up your side instead

Alive but wishing I was dead

Because it's you I lost

Now with dread 

I bleed out what should have been said

These Wishes

These Wishes 

By John M Lennon

Words of gold 

Sitting here getting old 

As my heart turns cold

With the loss of you I fold

So without your love filled with hugs and kisses 

It's for forgiveness with each of these wishes

The Truth

The Truth 

By John M Lennon

Words of anger, turned to pain 

Heart broken as you spoke 

Every word seems the same 

Crying tears of loss 

Restless, hopeless, sick 

Than push came to shove 

Seeing the degree of your love 

I finally walked away 

Tell the story your way 

I know the truth of the day 

Who Am I

Who Am I

By John M Lennon

Defining who I am

As it's right here I stand

But you never see a man

Because you think you already know

Who I am

A Real Man To Me

A Real Man To Me

By John M Lennon

It's you I face today

But without a thanks I walked away

So it's today I want to say

Thanks in every way

Because you helped make me who I am today

I just wish I would have let you be there every day

Because then I could have been a better me today

There

There 

By John M Lennon

A lone memory to bare 

You the last comfort I remember having here

Alone working it out tonight 

A needing want for your embrace 

Every step forward is that much harder to take 

Pushing forward I bare a loss of everything for which I use to care 

All as you are no longer…

There 

Given To Me

Given To Me 

By John M Lennon

Words I write

Feelings I fight 

Rhymes as I say goodnight 

Tucking you in like I wish my dad could have each night

Now it's a thanks as it's from the pain from which I write

Held tight these demons now claw at me to feed the fright 

Feelings of loss but unable to say goodnight 

As it is you that mended my heart with each word as you held me tight

Now it's for our children I show the light 

To never see the demons daddy use to fight 

So with you and my girls 

I praise the good lord

Smiling on me in my darkest night 

And giving me you the angel of my life

Missed

Missed 

By John M Lennon

A strength to regain

The last time I heard you say my name

Now it's every tear that falls 

I remember you the last person I can call 

Missing more then it all 

It's you I miss, because you were my all